-Written by Anna-
All of my life I have watched my Mom face her fears and not run from them! If you know her, you will know that one of her biggest fears is flying. In fact on a particularly difficult day in the midst of this journey, she cracked a half smile at me and said, “It could be worse, I could be on a plane right now!” Yet not once has it stopped her from traveling to Africa multiple times with my Dad and coming to visit me in Germany, etc. She has never let those fears stop her from following Jesus and I often think of her when trying to face into my own fears! What a gift she has given her daughters! God could have delivered her of that fear years ago (in fact we have asked Him to do just that over and over!) but instead of using that as an excuse to not get on those planes she continually steps out and trusts Him anyway! This has become almost a new catch phrase for me. Trusting anyway!
I don’t understand, I don’t see the whole picture, I wish there was another way, I wish He would instantly deliver her from all the suffering and fears, and YET I/we trust Him anyway!
I want to face into those fears,not running away but instead leaning hard on Jesus as we face tomorrow and the days after.
Mom is fearful about surgery tomorrow. The honest truth is we all are. We went in for surgery eleven weeks ago tomorrow and our lives were forever altered. And yet once again I am watching my Mother face into those fears! I pray hourly sometimes that Jesus would set her free of all anxiety and fear and so far He has not chosen to do so and YET He is here and she is trusting anyway! She is not running from it or letting it take her under. She is taking those fears and anxieties to Jesus and trusting anyway!
A long time family friend sent Mom the words to the Charles Wesley hymn, ‘Jesus, Lover of my Soul.’ The words are so good and feel so appropriate for us this week. I thought I would share them with you! I particularly love the line: “Cover my defenseless head with the shadow of Thy wing.” Mom’s brain is quite literally defenseless without the bone flap and we are so thankful that Jesus has covered her head through these days!
Thank you for your continued prayers for us and particularly for surgery tomorrow. We will update you as soon as we are able.
Jesus, Lover of my Soul
1.Jesus, lover of my soul, let me to Thy bosom fly,
While the nearer waters roll, while the tempest still is high.
Hide me, O my Savior, hide, till the storm of life is past;
Safe into the haven guide; O receive my soul at last.
2.Other refuge have I none, hangs my helpless soul on Thee;
Leave, ah! leave me not alone, still support and comfort me.
All my trust on Thee is stayed, all my help from Thee I bring;
Cover my defenseless head with the shadow of Thy wing.
3.Wilt Thou not regard my call? Wilt Thou not accept my prayer?
Lo! I sink, I faint, I fall—Lo! on Thee I cast my care;
Reach me out Thy gracious hand! While I of Thy strength receive,
Hoping against hope I stand, dying, and behold, I live.
4.Thou, O Christ, art all I want, more than all in Thee I find;
Raise the fallen, cheer the faint, heal the sick, and lead the blind.
Just and holy is Thy Name, I am all unrighteousness;
False and full of sin I am; Thou art full of truth and grace.
5.Plenteous grace with Thee is found, grace to cover all my sin;
Let the healing streams abound; make and keep me pure within.
Thou of life the fountain art, freely let me take of Thee;
Spring Thou up within my heart; rise to all eternity.