-Written by Stan-
Each of us comes equipped with a psychological mechanism that enables us to “filter” our thoughts and responses to various life situations. For example, when someone who is overweight bumps into us in the hallway, rather than responding with the first thought that comes to our mind (“Get out my way, you big fat idiot!”), we “filter” our response so that what comes out is more polite and appropriate (“Oh, please excuse me, Sir. It was all my fault.”). Thank God for filters!
But what happens if the filter is removed?
I’m not smart enough to explain medically what happens in a stroke but watching Katy these past three and a half weeks has given me an education. Part of what often happens in brain trauma is that the “filters” through which one normally lives one’s life are taken away and responses to stimuli are more, well, let me say “raw,” “spontaneous,” and “unfiltered.” Loud noise, pain, confusion, and interruptions provoke a response that comes out without all of the buffering benefits of the filters we normally use when we are healthy and strong. Typically, the picture is not pretty. Frankly, I tremble to think what I would be like if I suddenly I found myself the victim of a stroke, lying paralyzed in a hospital bed, living without the filters I normally use to shield the world around me from the inner person I really am. Lord, have mercy on us all!
This month I’ve had the privilege of living beside an “unfiltered” Katy and I simply want to share the marvel of witnessing the life of someone who has allowed God’s sanctifying grace to clean up not only the outside of one’s life, but the inside as well! Katy’s reactions to pain, paralysis, confusion and interruptions, even without the filters, continue to be seasoned with gentleness, love, humor and a deep concern for others first. Amazing! To be honest, seeing the unfiltered depth of Katy’s walk with Jesus has brought me to new understanding of what God wants to do in every human heart. I find myself sitting beside her bed as she sleeps praying that the sanctifying blood of Christ and the outpoured Spirit of Pentecost would do a new and deeper work in me.
Update – All three of Katy’s therapy sessions today were before noon which made for a rough morning but she pushed through and even pedaled for 15 minutes on a special bike! We were so proud of her. She continues to fight nausea and pain and side effects from different meds she is on so you can continue to pray for wisdom and for her body to continue to heal and be restored. Thank you!