Last night and today it felt like my Mom really woke up for the first time and we watched her as she began to try to arrange the confusing puzzle of what has happened. In fact, she spoke a lot (praise God!) and for the first time began to process what happened. She began to ask what was on her head. And how it all went so wrong after lung surgery. The nurse and us walked her through some of what happened, even showed her a picture of her head and the dozens of staples that now cover half of it. Although its scary, I think it gave her some of the first pieces of the puzzle. I honestly can’t imagine essentially waking up to her new reality and trying to figure out what in the world happened. Last she knew she was healthy and coming in for a seemingly basic surgery. Now she’s half paralyzed and recovering from brain surgery. There are certainly some areas of major confusion. This is hard for all of us. We know she is there and we see her personality, quirks, and humor. And yet she remains confused. It will take time for her to sort all this out and time for her brain to wake back up (in my non-medical terms). Pray for this. Today we see some fear in her eyes – particularly fear that she is loosing her mind. Pray for her to have courage for this scary time and pray for her brain to be able to put each piece together until she has the whole puzzle!
Although they do believe she may have a small case of pneumonia – they are encouraged today that her body seems to be fighting it! Her fever has gone down and she seems to be doing well. Please continue to pray for her body to fight this off! In fact, they are even talking about moving her out of Neuro ICU to the stroke unit. This would be a BIG step. Though its a good step – we are afraid to leave the constant care of the ICU. Pray for God’s perfect timing in all this.
Today we feel a huge mix of emotions. A wave of relief that she seems to be coming back to us! And a wave of grief at all that she has lost and the battle ahead! Pray for courage for her and for all of us.
Today we are ALL here and this brings us joy – even in hard circumstances. Although the kids can’t yet see Mom, it is fun to tell her we are all together. We praise God for that!